| | Title: Believe
Author: Leena/Starless
Rating: PG-Same-sex relationship (GASP!)
Email: Starless628@aol.com
Web site: Myspace
Disclaimer: They’re not mine, but I am willing to give up my house, bank accounts, car, and whatever else I have to buy them.
Comments welcome, no flaming, please.
This is a song - for the lonely
Can you hear me tonight
For the broken hearted, battle scared I'll
Be by your side
And this is a song - for the lonely
When your dreams won't come true
Can you hear this prayer
'Coz someone's there for you
Sometimes, on days like this, you’re all I think about. When I wake up in the morning, and go to bed that night, you’re on my mind. I see you everywhere. Every blonde hair blue eyed women I see on the streets is you, walking away from me again. On days like these, my DD-5’s and my notes say nothing but your name over and over, and Elliot doesn’t know what to do with me. Its days like these that I feel so alone, so lost, that I want to crawl into a ball and hide. Then I remember that you’re not really dead. Gone, yes, but not forever. It doesn’t have to be forever. I hope that you’re safe; I hope that you’re thinking of me, and I hope that I you know what’s in my heart, though I never got the chance to speak the words.
When you're standing on the edge of nowhere
There's only one way up
So your heart's got to go there
Through the darkest night
See the light shine bright
When hero's fall, in love or war
They live forever
Today, El and I had to go tell an elderly man that his wife was raped and killed. I stood there with this 67 year old man crying on my shoulder, asking me “Why?” I couldn’t answer him. I can never answer them; I can just tell them how sorry I am. Today was one of those days where I want to be able to go home to you, but I can’t. I can just hope that you’re safe and that you still think of me, because without that, I’d be lost. I know that someday, I’ll see you again. I have to believe that.
Well love don't need a reason
She can pick you up
Or leave you bleeding
I've seen a strong man cry
I know the reason why
We all forgive, we all forget
We just keep believing
Eva Clark. When I introduce myself, I still have the urge to say “Emily Wilson,” and every so often, on the days where all I think about is you, I want to say “Alex Cabot.” When I’m alone at night, staring at my ceiling, wishing that I had you next to me, I wonder if you ever think of me. If you still remember me as me, and not as “Emily,” or someone else. I need you to remember Alex for me. There are days where I don’t know who it is that I’m looking at in the mirror, and I need your voice to remind me. Without you, I don’t know who I am, so I have to keep believing that you’re still mine, and that someday, I’ll see you again.
This is a song - for the lonely
Can you hear me tonight
For the broken hearted, battle scared I'll
Be by your side
And this is a song - for the lonely
When your dreams won't come true
Can you hear this prayer
'Coz someone's there for you
This morning, when I woke up, my mind went immediately to you. When I looked at myself, I saw Alex looking back at me, and I had to fight myself not to cry. That was the first time in what feels like forever I saw me, not just a ghost, a shadow. The marshals came to me today, Liv. I’m free to be me. Not “Eva” or “Emily,” but Alexandra. I get to come home to you. My heart gets to meet my body again, and I’ve never been so nervous.
This is a song
A song for the lonely
And that's not you only
Through the darkest night
You're gonna see the light
Love don't need a reason
Just to leave you bleeding
Can you hear this prayer
Someone's there
I’m alone again. Cragen finally sent me home after 4 days without sleeping, and I don’t understand why when I need work most, to keep my mind off you, I’m put back into the same situation, where I allow you to succumb me. There’s a knock at the door, and I figure its Elliot, here to breakdown my walls and force me to talk about things he couldn’t possibly understand. I open the door without looking through the peep whole and am stunned to silence when I see you. Blonde hair, blue eyes, and black rimed glasses, the same ones that I’ve dreamt about every night since you left. You step forward and hug me tight, as though you’re afraid to ever let go again. I lift my arms in attempt to wipe away the tears that I hadn’t even noticed fell until just now, when you beat me to it. I finally embrace you, as tight as I can without hurting you, and you say what I’ve been dying to hear for the longest time, and never got the chance to hear.
“I love you.”
I know now is my chance, because if I don’t tell you now, I may not ever do it.
“I love you too, Alex.”
You start to cry and I know it’s over. I’ll never have to say goodbye to you again. It will finally be me and you. Together, forever.
So let it find you
Wherever you may go
I'm right beside you
You don't have to look no more
You don't have to look no more, oh no
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
This is a song - for the lonely
Can you hear me tonight
For the broken hearted, battle scared
I'll be by your side
And this is a song
for the lonely
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